Seems like every single time I sit down to write, I stare at a blank screen. There are so many funny things floating around in my head, and so many things I would like to say. However, being the non confrontational person I am I tend to censor myself (perhaps too much at times) because I am constantly worried of who I may offend.
I started writing this blog for me, and then I started to get readers and followers (which I am ecstatic about by the way) but with great power comes great responsibility, or shall I say "with readers comes responsibility... Being a super non confrontational person I try to avoid conflict at all costs. However, I feel like I have become so overly super censored and not myself that I have totally taken all the fun away from MY blog, and if it is not fun anymore, than I likely will not write (which is my biggest passion) so what is a girl to do? Do I risk being seen as rude, crude, and offensive or do I get burnt out and give up on my dreams because there is a possibility I could offend someone?
I am sure to most of you this seems like a total no brainer, but have I mentioned I am non confrontational? Not only that, but I am a people pleaser, it's a curse, and I hate it because so many times I feel like I am not being me. I have tried to reason that I am "doing it for the people" but then I feel like I am getting cheated. On the other hand if I write all the things that thrash around in my head I am positively positive someone won't like it, so here's my dilemma, do I please the people, and risk loosing me, or do I please me and risk loosing the people?
Well, I thought and thought and came to only one real conclusion, the world of blogging is crazy, and there are lots of crazy people in it (I mean I am here aren't I) and there is likely always going to be someone displeased with me, I mean that's part of life, and at some point I suppose I eventually have to learn to live with rejection... I mean I am a grown up now (unfortunately) so I guess it is time I put on my big girl panties. I am pretty positive that it is far better to be hated for who you are, then loved for who you aren't...
So here is my warning, from this point forward you may see all sorts of non people pleasing type blogs and newsflash at some point you may be offended by the things I say, well let me make this clear, it is not my intentions to purposely offend people, but hey... It's my blog, my dream and I am writing for ME... You've been given fair warning, but I hope you will all buckle in and stick around for what I can promise will be one crazy wild (but FUN) ride : )